GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Again, I failed! I overdosed again last night. This time I took 50mg, I think. I may not have taken that much. Tonight I'm left feeling alone, empty, and self-hatred. I want so badly to die right now. It sounds so peaceful. My friend told me tonight that I have too much to live for and too many people to mentor. I'm going along with therapy Tuesday for the first time in a couple years. I'm hoping I don't go back on my word and start cutting again too. No overdose tonight, as of now. Night.